Random Thoughts

So for the past couple of years, I've been struggling with something I think many women do in my situation - I want to have kids, like RIGHT NOW lol

I just turned 23, but I have never felt my age. I've always been years beyond my actual age, and I can definitely see that more often the older I get. I know that my body is also sending my brain signals - "hey yo self - you should totally get preggers...your at PRIME baby making age, and you're not getting any younger!" and since I've been with my boyfriend for 5 years now, I feel like we are far enough into our relationship to start thinking about children.  (...well, some would say marriage first then kids, but for some reason I'd rather get pregnant than get married right now and hey its not like I plan on leaving Cody any time soon lol)

Cody's mentioned to me that he definitely wants kids, but his main reason not to is - you guessed it - money. You will always hear people say "you never have enough money, it just always seems to work out one way or another!" or "if that's your reason for not having them - it'll never happen!". I think this is true, but in Cody's defense even though we do make decent paychecks - we have a lot of debt to pay off first. I know that if we weren't paying off debt we would have several hundred dollars left over at the end of the month.

I also have said from the day I knew I wanted to become a mother, that I want to be a stay-at-home mom for the kid's first years. I don't want to miss anything. I think that is the way nature intended, for mothers to have all the time in the world with their little ones. I don't mind working, I will work once they get a little older, I just don't want to have to work to make ends meet when they are newborns - 1 year old(ish). I mean, that's not too much to ask - is it?!?!

Anyways, I just kinda wanted to get that off my chest. It's been a constant thing on my mind every time I see my nieces, every time I see a baby, every time I see a pregnant lady, every-freaking-time I see a commercial for babies/diapers/etc.....it just insane and my hormones need to take a chill pill lol

I am confident that things will fall into place when they are supposed to, and if I don't get everything the way I want it - I am OK with that because I know that God has a plan for all of us and that everything happens for a reason. It's just gonna be the way he lays it out in front of me. However it happens it is supposed to be that way, so I just keep that thought in the back of my mind and it helps me get through the day.

I just can't wait for it though, I want to become a mommy so badly it seems to hurt sometimes.
But when the time is right, it'll happen!

Well Hello Again, It's Been A While....

Well, hello again!

It sure has been a while..........I have been out of it lately!

Since my last post a sad event my life happened...my beloved Honda was taken away from me!!!!!!!!!!  :'(((

Here's the pictures from when she was murdered...


Goodbye, my love!



It was fun while it lasted, dear Goldie Honda!



RIP 2000 Honda Accord

 Luckily, I was fine. Other than average seat belt bruising and I also sorta hit my knee on the dash when it happened so I had a bruise from that as well. Nothing major though, thankfully.

Good thing is though, is I got a new car out of it! Look at it's sexy-ness.....I've always wanted an SUV, I'm soooooooooooooooo happy I got this one. I gotta name it though, any suggestions??!?!!?!

(OTHER than Silver Bullet I might add, its used waaaay too often and every time I think about my car I dont want to think about someone masturbating so..yeah lol)

2011 Ford Escape

Anyways, I hope everyone has a great Memorial Day weekend! Be safe, but have fun!

...I'll be at home, doing chores and dealing with a leaking roof in our master bedroom...OH YEAH, and our fridge went out, sorta...the fridge part isnt circulating cool air tho it feels like its trying but the freezer is working fine, so we'll be dealing with that too...FUN WEEKEND AHEAD OF ME, HUH?!!??!

...i know you are jealous, don't even try to deny it lol

I will make an effort to get drunk and celebrate though, and I don't drink often so it'll be a special occasion for me. Party whoo! lol

ok...im done now, bye everyone!

JM-30DS, Day 1

Day 1 was yesterday!

Had a small NSV yesterday - My mind kept coming up with every excuse to put off working out, and the whole time I just kept changing into my workout clothes. Still fighting with myself I put on my shoes. Still fighting to find the right excuse, I said to myself "You're already changed into your gym clothes, how could you change and still not even workout?...its not THAT bad!" ...So I told my mind "F-U" and got to my workout!

....one step at a time! lol, but I did it which is the most important thing!

Today I didnt think I was really sore at all, mostly just stiff - but as today goes on I am feeling the soreness come on.

So after work, I am going to do Day 2 - I'll let ya'll know how it goes!
:)

Dun - Dun - Dun!

Today is May 1st - SO - today is the DAY1 I start back my Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred hardcore!

I am challenging myself to go the full 30 days without stopping, and to also do each level for just 10 days.

Starting Measurements (*eek! & GAG*)

• Left Arm: 14 inches
• Right Arm: 14 inches
• Chest: 39 in (incl. boobs), 34 in (not incl. boobs)
• Stomach/Belly: 42 inches
• Waist: 35.5 inches
• Hips: 45.5 inches
• Left Thigh: 25 inches (at largest part)
• Right Thigh: 25 inches (at largest part)

I am also taking before pictures tonight - but you won't see those until the after pictures lol.
I will spare you the horror for now lol.

New Hair!

So i was supposed to get my hair cut a couple weekends ago - it got rescheduled so I got it cut this past weekend by my favorite hair lady ever, Shannon!

What do you think?

Recipes ~ Cookie Cake! {For When You Are OK With Being Bad}

So, I know that this blog is for weight loss and all, but on the occasion that you want to indulge....this is the best cookie cake you'll ever shove in your face (trust me, that's how you'll want to eat these)

Here's the recipe!

Cookies/Cookie Cake

Ingredients

• 2 Cup - All Purpose Flour
• 1 teaspoon - Baking Powder
• 1 teaspoon - Baking Soda
• 3/4 teaspoon - Cinnamon, Ground
• 1/2 teaspoon - Salt
• 1 Cup (2 Sticks) - Butter, softened
• 1 Cup - Brown Sugar, Firmly Packed
• 1 Cup - Sugar, Granulated
• 2 Eggs
• 2 teaspoon - Vanilla Extract
• 1.5 Cups - Chocolate Chips
• 1/2 Cup - Chopped Walnuts (optional)

1. Preheat Oven to 350' F
2. In medium bowl, combine flour, baking powder, baking soda, cinnamon, & salt; mix well. 
3. In large bowl, beat butter and sugars, with electric mixer until light and fluffy. Add eggs & vanilla; mix well. Add flour mixture & mix well. 
4. Stir in chocolate chips (& walnuts if desired). 
5. Either drop by teaspoons onto cookie pans, or spread evenly onto large 17.25"x11.5"x1" pan to make into cookie cake. 
6. Bake for 9-10 mins (for cookies) ~OR~  10-15 mins (for cookie cake) {For both: cook until the tops 'pop' sorta like a souffle. You'll know what I'm talking about when they are cooking and almost done. It'll be a rich dark brown color}
7. Take out & let sit for about 10 mins to cool. 

Cookies Yield: About 35 ~ Cookie Cake Yield: 1 Sheet

~ENJOY!~

Recipe - I Want To Try This!

CHEESY ZUCCHINI BITES

Original Recipe Yield 35 servings

Ingredients

5 medium zucchini
4 ounces shredded mozzarella
3 tablespoons grated Parmesan cheese
10 - 15 fresh basil leaves, torn in half if huge
1/2 tsp pepper
1/2 tsp salt
3 roma tomatoes, very thinly sliced

~Preheat oven to 400 degree F
~Cut zucchini into 3/4-ind. slices. Using a melon baller or small spoon, scoop out the insides and discard, leaving the bottom intact.
~Place zucchini on an ungreased baking sheet; spoon 1/2 teaspoon mozzarella cheese into each.
~Combine Parmesan cheese, salt and pepper; sprinkle half over mozzarella cheese.
~Top each with a tomato slice; sprinkle with remaining Parmesan mixture.
~Bake at 400 degrees F for 5-7 minutes or until cheese is melted. Serve warm.

One appetizer equals: 19 calories, 1 g fat (1 g saturated fat), 3 mg cholesterol, 58 mg sodium, 1 g carbohydrate, 0.55 g fiber, 1 g protein.

I AM SO TRYING THIS! lol

*drool*